Statement Ultimatum - Pt. 10: Last Episode - AFAB Reality & Why I Can't Go to Japan.
- Friends or Friendless?
A: ...
You know, I think, thanks to my 'Buddhist practice' all those years + My RL experiences in & out of school & work settings so far,
ANGER, first of all. I do think it's true. It's like one of those 'sexual desire/instant gratification' stuffs - stuff does not last forever!
It's either I forget, or they forget. And everyone just moves on, since there's LIFE. You know what I mean?
B: ..But we live in a world that chases after the latter. Namely, the gratification part.
A: ...I have no idea why, but I am currently envisioning you as this funny penguin-suit guy figure.
B: Please be as racist & sexist as possible, you are more than allowed in this venue.
A: Oh, thank you.
........
B: So you don't feel you're victimized more than you thought you were.
A: You know, when it comes down to childhood experiences - whether that'd be ACE's (*Adverse Childhood Events) or childhood trauma -
I regard it as nothing but on the most subjective of realms. Like,
..I really wish I was one of those real old Ph.D Ladies who had ALL the knowledge in the world about why kids would go in the wrong direction in life -
truth was that, I went to at least a couple of webinars from the government alone - NASA, NPS to OJJDP just to name a few - and yes they are people, but the personnels there are more than well grounded in their own setting so as to necessarily be distanced 'off' from laypeople like me as my impression goes.
B: It's the government. What else?
A: Well, I certainly wasn't there to ask for a job.
B: "Sigh" (Rolls eyes)
...I get that anyhow that it's your adult life now, and you're at least trying stuffs. On your own I mean.
A: Thank you?
...But yes, think about it,
I'm not sure if I'm more 'keen' on this, but there IS certainly a HECKLOAD of org's around here. Whether it be about nature conservation or local government...
B: Sounds like human society already.
A: Just like my twitter banner...
(labyrinthine Labyrinthos.)
B: But you've changed a lot. That's for sure. ....Whether for better or worse.
A: ...Yes........
If you're surrounded w/ gazillions of foreigners in the most radicalized state of America while being a 1st-generation immigrant from somewhere off the northeast Asia in 2025,
..I guess stuff does something to your conscience. I don't know what else to put it.
B: Sounds like about like it.
..At least you aren't totally 'alone' - whether it be about business of chasing after money, or just simply 'working'.
A: Yes, the senior people.
..They're there for a reason.
B: (Crimping nose) Right?
A: ..At least having room for aging in real life I'm rather relieved from that 'friend-zone anxiety' - what kids these days would go through to make them feel more... POPULAR.
I certainly had that side growing up I feel, I just didn't know how to do it the right way being the weirdo I was.
B: ...
- Since when.
A: The kids at that military base, ....
They certainly didn't bully/was as aggressive, as the other party was.
Till this day it's still a wonder to me - how remaining strangers with foreign bodies would turn out to be a better survival strategy for me in this human world,
..than trying to forge too deep ties while remaining all local & native to where you were born.
B: You can say that.
..I'm guessing, that's like the fate of most immigrants. Unless we were from large family.
You know, just be like 'Hi', then be off 'Bye' afterwards.
A: Sounds increasingly.... infantile. But I guess that how things been working since Gen Y.
......
C: Do you wanna explore social psychology?
(Who the heck are you?)
A: ....No.
- Feminist Cinema.
A: Few of the most memorable pieces of work, I've saved them in the playlist below ⬇️
B: Ah, yes.
'Francis' I do remember, had this rather violent edge.
..If the romance w/ the male partner rather remained somewhat poetic.
..Cuz I don't know how this sounds, but -
A: Yes, the mental ward unit.
...I just can't believe how they kept the whole system so... regressive until like 10 years ago.
(Talk about your crime?)
B: It just reproduces one of those 'broken people', you mean.
A: Yes! Through their own idiocy, nothing else!
...Even Koreans in my opinion are NOT exempt from that behavior - so much so ageism was ageism if racial and/or cultural spectrums had dimensions of their own.
I certainly wouldn't be speaking like thus say that I was a 50-year-old male Chinese immigrant.
Or if I wasn't college educated - in the U.S..
B: ..?
A: Means it can be anybody.
B: .......
C: .....I certainly wouldn't play a 'neutral/impersonal entity' on that.
A: Why are you here, trying to show off yourself?
C: .....No.
My role here is not only temporary but fixed, since I've merely been playing as an observer of sort.
I'm trying to interpret your side of take on this; I just don't know how long it would last.
A: Oh, it won't be FOREVER, I assure you.
- The Trust Issues.
A: .....But this should be like the most casually written 'novella' of all.
B: Certainly, nobody's here to play Shakespeare.
A: That guy's English & He hated Joan De'Arc but loved Money.
Like WTF it just goes along w/ what Radical Feminists have been preaching against for.
B: ......Okay.
I am neither going to be siding with nor digress away from that, I guess.
C: Wise choice.
B: ....You're beginning to annoy me.
C: Sorry.
A: ....But I certainly wouldn't wanna have such & such 'human' issues develop into what's called a 'threesome problem'.
Like there's that male power figure who already has his date, and it happens to be ME who takes the villainess' role.
...What kind of 3rd-grade soap opera am I getting myself into in that picture? It's not even professional.
So much for being over 21 years of age, I'm now mauled b/w a completely random set of guy & a girl who's not even 'wet behind the ears'.
B: ...Sounds like real life.
...Well, so much for those 'wet dreams' thanks to the dude.
C: Not even surprised.
A: .....At least thing didn't even last that long.
I've told you, if it's PGAD, it's PGAD. If it's hypersexuality, it certainly is WHAT IT IS - NOT anywhere BEYOND that level.
I don't think I'd have to be the one to get into the details regarding human emotions or what REAL & AUTHENTIC engaged relationship among human man & woman looks like here, ....You get what I'm saying?
Same reason bunch of single dudes & 30-year-old "gals" like me these days would just leave those marital couples ALONE the F*CK w/ their own businesses. I know there's more than a TON of types like that nowadays.
(3rd grade stuffs. Smh.)
- Closing.
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